Wednesday, October 28, 2009
gosh,
It's...
Scary...
If you get
THAT feeling...
i'm super duper afraid rite now...
i'm hoping that i'm wrong...
SIGH!
try having your father
say alot of weird stuff..
weird as in good weird...
try being closer to your father than mother...
but *like usual parents*
he have never actually said "i love you" to you...
but suddenly,
he begins saying it..
over and over again...
then he starts talking stuff like...
"i want you to prove your mom wrong..."
and
"i know you can do it..."
and
"i believe in you..."
and
"dont you EVER let me down no matter what..."
i ask you,
have your dad EVER said these stuff to you??
i bet you that your answer is no...
well,
according to malays...
before someone passes away..
there will be "signs"...
its like,
the person who's going knows that they're going soon...
so they're using the remaining time
to 'complete' their lives...
so they start talking weird but they dont realise it...
you know,
that's what i'm afraid of..
i DONT EVER want him to go....
until now,
i've seen MANY close friends suffer losing parents
and the ones they love...
one even cried till she fainted cos she couldn't accept that fact...
my father...
ever since mid exams he started acting weird...
i'm... scared....
i cant talk to anyone but 1 person..
the rest wont understand the actual feeling...
but i wont...
whats the use?!
if you know me,
there are two things i cannot do easily...
firstly, talk about how i'm feeling...
i was used to not being listened...
thus i'm used to keeping everything in....
secondly,
it is NOT easy for me to cry...
it takes ALOT...
trust me...
in sjab,
i cried cos i cared...
i love sjab no matter what...
i know i may not be the best there...
but my passion towards it never dies....
the other time,
i got angry...
so angry i just threw something dear to me to someone...
then kept silent in one corner...
thats cos my feelings were hurt...
were hurt till i couldn't take it anymore....
so to all of you rite now,
when i keep silent..
please do think about me..
dont worry...
i'm just.... thinking?
unwritten! atWednesday, October 28, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I WANT COOOOOKIE!
i got craving for cookie....
oh and munn's cousin is crazy...
i think i'm dying of boredom....
i still want cookie!
i need to go shopping..
shoot, i'm writing crap...
i got GOOD reason ok!
ermm... hmm...
ok i dont..
grr.. should've gone to school....
could have killed time.... haha!
getting much more sian....
just wasted some msges..
know for wat???
sjab!
msged them to send me the ppt slides..
NO ONE SENT!
NOT EVEN ONEEEEE!
=.="""""
grr..
takpe, nasib baik lah aku boleh tahan...
LOL!
so, started from scratch..
browsed through past slides and notes...
oh and i realised ANOTHER thing!
browsing through past notes CAN be fascinating! haha!
ok lazy to change font and stuff..
finally done with some stuff..
wanna go play games! haha!
bye
unwritten! atTuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
every night,
under the clear blue sky,
with the stars in the sky,
and the moon shining bright...
never was there a night,
that you weren't here in my mind...
everyday,
seeing you walk by,
seeing you smiling by,
all i'd asked myself,
do i make u fly?
every hour,
thats spent with you,
you're like my one special flower
who never fails to bloom..
every minute
wasted with you
i know my wish
already came true
every second
as i look into your eyes,
as you hold my hand,
all i want you to know is...
my love to you will never die...
people say hello and goodbye..
but people always forget the last part of it...
so i'm reminding you now,
hello will lead to a goodbye
but will end with an i misssed you...
once there was a boy,
who, never had i known, existed...
i never knew i existed in his life either...
till the day came..
never did i expected,
anyone who would wanna even talk to me..
cos i was then..
just a simple nobody...
we talked,
as though we were best friends..
the secrets i've nvr shared
was all poured out
without me knowing it..
i remembered,
there was a time...
my life was at its most horrible moment..
there was only a feeling of lonelyness...
i didn't know who to turn to..
i didn't know who to talk to..
but only 1 person was in my mind..
and that was you...
everytime lonely invaded my castle,
my prince is always there to try all his might
to save me..
though its hard to see him suffer
just cos i'm suffering,
he manages to save me
and bring the lonelyness out...
to my dearest prince,
my heart's never felt like this before
and ever since you came into my life
i've never asked from you for anything more.
i want to do my best
i want to prove my cousin wrong
to prove to many
that i can do it..
i'll try my best
to reach for my goals
and i know i can do it,
as long as your here with me.
today marks a special day
for both you, and me
i hope today is one of your best days...
so be happy,
as happy as can be!!
i know in one way or another,
i never did do my part..
so here i am..
hoping you'd forgive me...
i'm sorry i didn't help
i'm sorry i hurt you
i'm sorry i'm not perfect
i'm sorry for wat i made you go through...
i'm sorry i forgot
i'm sorry for my wrongs
i'm sorry....
' + ' . ' + ' . + ' . ' ( '
( )"""( ) ( )"'@( )
( , ' o ' ) ( ' o ' , )
( (,,) (,,) (,,) (,,) )
like i said,
i'll be watching over you
tonight & every other night!
.* * , , * * .
* * *
* . . *
" * ,, * "
i'll put up my heart here...
for you to take...
@>-----
a flower
from me to you...
you know,
when you blog,
it doesn't have to be about negative stuff...
i believe there are fun stuff
happening in your life..
try writing about happy stuff...
even the darkest moments have a little light..
example,
*EXAMPLE ONLY AH!*
if someone trips and falls..
its a bad thing yes..
but admit it, it IS funny!
haha!
somtimes,
i feel much better reading others' blog...
most of the time,
reading about someone else,
gives u ideas of wat to blog!
unwritten! atMonday, October 26, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
i realised...?
i dunno why but i'm writing these down..
i guess i've been thinking..?
poeple DONT go around find their 'someone'...
we go around in search of friends!
i realised,
whenever you want something really badly,
you wont really get it..
only when you 'give up' will you get it...
love isn't exactly what you read in photobucket and stuff...
you will never know when you're in love...
for some reason,
being confident is difficult for me...
sometimes,
when you think you're confident enough to achieve something,
it doesn't mean you'll get it..
sometimes,
its MUCH better to be yourself..
this way,
its easier for someone else to point out
YOUR mistakes...
most of the time,
i feel like talking...
complaining,
expressing myself..
but i realise..
when this happens...
i cant find the rite words to say....
now i know why some people cant understand me...
i realised,
when you dont 'talk' to your parents for a long time...
they'll worry..
worry ALOT about you...
when poeple say "kurang hajar" to you...
it doesn't only say that your parents didn't teach you well..
it also says that you didn't listen well enought to your parents....
when you're in love,
you should never forget...
you love your parents more than anyone on earth...
you know you love someone*as a friend/more* when....
no matter how much you hate him/her
you cant keep on hating them.
the only way to make friends...
is to be one..
this means,
being patient is an important thing...
i realised...
i'm the type....
who cant show anger towards many....
though i do not like someone, ...
i will NEVER have the heart to be mean to them...
i guess, my past taught me something after all....!
ok i guess thats all i've realised..
*that i could remember atleast! XP*
note to EVERYONE....
these are all RUBBISH!
so do not think i'm pointing out to anyone!!!
better still,
forget all these...
theiy're MY lessons in life...
unwritten! atSaturday, October 24, 2009
GIRLS,
YOUR TIME TO..
SHINE!!!!
What kind of
GIRL ARE YOU?
40% of girls in the world usually don't know who they are.
The judgements made by their friends are not that accurate
This can help you, make the correct judgement
There must strictly be NO cheating or the results won't be accurate
And if you're a guy, SHOO. You don't want to be a girl, do you?
Get ready a piece of paper and pen
Write 1 - 10 in a column
SCROLL if you're READY...
1) What is your favourite colour?
a) Red
b) Pink
c) Yellow
d) Light blue*
2) What is your favourite hang-out place with your friends?
a) Home
b) Shopping mall*
c) Dinner at restaurant
3) What is your usual dress code?
a) Pants and shirt*
b) Long flowy dress
c) Pajamas?
d) Cap, mini running shorts and singlet
4) If you had free time, what would you do?
a) Have a picnic with family and relatives*
b) Throw a party with friends
c) Read a book
d) Play with your dolls
5) Name one of your hobbies
a) Photography
b) Studying*
c) Dancing
6) What is your favourite genre of music?
a) Pop*
b) Rock
c) Classical
7) In your opinion, who is the most important person/people/thing in your life?
a) *Him
b) Bank account
c) Family*
8) If your mother gives you $50, you would...
a) Donate it to charity*
b) Demand more, because it's not enough to get you the stuff you want
c) Give it to the bully because he/she says so
9) If the guy of your dreams asks you out the day before the exams, you...
a) Tell him to study for the exams first.*
b) Just go out with him
c) Run away quickly
10) What is your favourite time of the day?
a) Afternoon*
b) Morning
c) Night
11) MAKE A WISH!
TIME'S UP!
Now for the FUN part...
1) What is your favourite colour?
-Red (brave)
-Pink (sweet)
-Yellow (fun)
-Light blue (carefree)*
2) What is your favourite hangout place with your friends?
-Home (simple)
-Shopping mall (crazy, fun)*
-Dinner at restaurant (serious)
3) What is your usual dress code?
-Pants and shirt (simple)*
-Long flowy dress (graceful, elegant)
-Pajamas? (sloppy)
-Cap, mini running shorts and singlet (atheletic)
4) If you had free time, what would you do?
-Have a picnic with family and relatives (cares, loves family)*
-Throw a party with friends (wacky)
-Read a book (shy, hardworking)
-Play with your dolls (childish)
5) Name one of your hobbies
-Photography (creative)
-Studying (clever, mature)*
-Dancing (graceful)
6) What is your favourite genre of music?
-Pop (fun)*
-Rock (loud, crazy)
-Classical (relaxed, carefree)
7) In your opinion, who is the most important person/people/thing in your life?
-*Him (lovesick)
-Bank account (moneyminded)
-Family (lovable, sweet)*
8) If your mother gives you $50, you would...
-Donate it to charity (helpful)*
-Demand more, because it is not enough to get you the stuff you want (greedy)
-Give it to the bully because he/she says so (soft)
9) If the guy of your dreams asks you out the day before the exams, you...
-Tell him to study for the exams first. (mature)*
-Just go out with him (naughty)
-Run away quickly (shy)
10) What is your favourite time of the day?
-Afternoon (cheerful)*
-Morning (healthy)
-Night (dark, emotional)
_______________________________________________________
ok some random picts
(since i'm bored!)
I'D LOVE TO FIND THIS!
HAHA!
SUPER NICE!!
for all of uuuuuu!
you,
know make me feel this way?
i am these..
*except the 3rd fact*
IT'S ALL.....
ok i go find more next time..
now stomach grumbling cos of yesterday! haha!
byeee......................
unwritten! atSaturday, October 24, 2009
unwritten! atSaturday, October 24, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
*BREATHING DEEPLY*
ok today was an
"i love my life but hated every minute" day...
grr...
firstly,
mdm R came!!
she should have stayed home to relax...
haha
then i like emaths now!
cos i got 31/50 for P1
and i got 41/50 for P2!!!!!
DISTINCTION LOCKED INNNNNN!!!!
WOOHOOOOOO!!!!
PE was freaking exhausting!
played for awhile
*thats how it felt ah*
and we were all already tired...
i dont like going against the "three towers"!
make me feel short! hmp~!!
recess was sooo short!
we were drinking,
then came to class...
then posted *lastminute* notice....
then came up..
then chatted alittle..
and next thing know,
teacher here!!!
unfair!
SS was horrid!
i got lowest in our clique!
i got 25/50!!!!!
wth rite?!
i didn't understand the sources
thus dunno how to write for SBQ!
if u see m,y SEQ,
you'd realised i busted my brain to study!!!
grrr....
then,
mdm R came in..
she gave us our Amaths P1 back...
i loveeeeee it!
got 31/50 for P1!!!
gosh! fantastic lahhhh!
now i'm hoping i didn't flunk P2!!
training was..
undescribable?
i'll leave it to you to pick if its a good/bad thing!
had lecture at first..
i didn't present cos..
I DONT KNOW WHAT WAS ON THE SLIDES!
cant expect me to read only rite?!!!!!
then test was next...
the juniors ah!!
give them clue still dunno how to do!
its just "name the 7 types of wounds"!!!
abrasion
contusion
laceration
gunshot
stab
punctured
Incised!!!!
as easy as thattttttt!
CPR also dunno!
grr...
had games after that..
my muscles got twisted..
cos rite...
this DUMB GIRL didn't do any stretching!
dumbo = amira!
remember that!!!!
then had to do changing parade..
i had to do uniform inspection..
by inspecting the girls,
i come to one conclusion....
DO NOT CUT LAYER ANYMORE!!!
haha! its true lah!
lalalalala...
blablablablabla....
then got cake for ko..
celebrated...
ms rosmira is our new teacher!
blablabla...
i had to command the bersurai..
was nervous...
i didn't get that feeling..
the feeling of achievement...
cos...
the only reason i got to bersurai them
was cos bron was sick....
it wasn't the reason i was expecting...
so yea..
i'll still wait till 'the day' comes....
i'm finally home now!
great sia!
took me like 15mins just to walk from bus stop to HOME!
usually only like 3mins...
was damn tired..
remembered i didn't eat today at all...
then i couldn't really breathe properly also..
dont ask why!
cos i dunno also...
so walked & walked till i 'collapse' onto my bed...
still not eating nor bathing yet...
too tired to get up i guess...
nvm,
i'm gonna try...
also,
i got left at home
alone with my maid
while the rest went swimming..
irritating..
so hungry yet so full..
this feeling's horrible!
gah,,
nvm, i'm trying to get up to batheee!
BYE!!
from the way you would hold me
to the sweet things u told me
i just cant find a way
to let go of you...
you know...
when u said you WOULD do 'it'..
i didn't believe it..
know why?
cos i've never done 'it'...
its not cos i didn't trust you...
i was...
scared?nervous?idunno...
unwritten! atFriday, October 23, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
can we start over?
i miss you...
i really needed to let that out...
dont stop ok?
dont go...
cos i promise..
i wont....
today was funnnnnn! haha!
morning was.. bleah...
know why?
cos SOMEONE woke up earlier than me..
dont friend that person ah!
haha!
ok childish...
spent the afternoon
wotching tv,
playing comp,
blahblahblah,
finish my 'long compo'
and more
blahblahblah....
to sum it up,
today was slacking day! haha!
for dinner..
*i like dinner!*
my lil bro treat us pizza hut!!
*oh plus a few bucks from my mom ah*
he wanted to treat last week
but something came out...
yummmmm! haha!
bought"ocean catch" pizza..?
i think that was its name at least... haha!
then got some side dishes..
and omgoshhhh!
i love lasagnia!
*or however you spell that! haha!*
ok,
in conclusion,
today rocked! haha!
ohh and i finally got the markers i wanteddddd!!!
weeee!
plus, i got my headband too!
and stickersssssss! haha!
ok, i'm not childish,
i just miss my childhood days... LOL
it nite time now!
wanna go bed!
i hope i wont get anymore scary dreams...
give me chills,
make me scared!
NITES YOU ALL!!!!
BYEEEEEEE
(ps, whoever that read my *current* private blog,
please act like you didn't read anything!
thanx!)
i wish..
i could see these in the sky...
shooting stars...
a beautiful rainbow...
a bright and shining moon...
an then...
i wanna see you..
flying high in the sky..
reaching for your dreams...
when i see these things,
then will i know,
its time for me to fly..
cos i'll never fly
as long as you're on the ground....
nite!
unwritten! atSunday, October 18, 2009
Fell asleep in the arms of the opposite sex?
Nope.. :(
Ever physically fought with a member of the opposite sex?
nopee.
Ever walked in on your friends having sex?
my friends still a V lahh
Ever sang to the person you liked?
sang to, nopee. sang with, yupp
for fun ahh
Is there anyone who likes you?
i know there is! <3
Do you believe ex's can be friends ?
Yupppp
Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
exams? haha... erm.. in bus??.
Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
everyone yes..
What is/are your favorite color/s?
sky blue, navy blue, sea blue, ocean blue, baby blue, every blue & pink! haha
Are you a shy person?
shy as in feelings yes, other i guess not?
What are you excited for?
bed time. XP
Do you have memories that you want to forget?
erm.. hmmm.. i not sure..
If you could cry right now, what would be the reason?
Happiness?
Are you happy?
currently, yea!
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
let the future be my surprise!
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
SHORTS!
Do you hate seeing happy couples?
nope.. they look cute!
If you went to jail, who would bail you out?
erm i dunno..
*i'm not going there for sure!*
How tall are you?
161cm? around there ah..
*short i know!*
When was the last time you were actually happy?
THIS MORNING!
How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair?
depends..
tie : 10 - 15minutes?
untie : 5minutes! haha!
Have you ever played spin the bottle?
nope! i good girl!
Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
yupp.
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
almost kinda?
Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
Love one person!
Have you ever wondered how they make lines in toothpaste?
yuppp... and i still dunno the ans!!
Do you ever feel curious about how people see you?
ALWAYSSSSS!
When is the next time you will kiss someone?
i dunno!
LOL!
Do you find smoking unattractive?
erm.. obvious rite???
Who was your crush in 5th grade?
primary 5..... it was still R.. haha
What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
losing him in the end..?
Have you ever suspected anyone cheating on you?
erm... nope! ;P
Do you remember who you liked on New Years?
haha... yuppp!
and still liking him!
Are you someone who worries too often?
YESSSSSSS!!!!
Could things possibly get any better?
OBVIOUSLYYYYY!!
Have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours?
NOPEEEEEEE
Have you ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex everyday?
if i'm not wrong, yes... but with cousins ah
Have you ever been in a car accident?
erm.. nope
If you could have something right now, what would it be?
TEDDY BY MY SIDE!!!
Do you like sushi?
erm.. depends?
What can you currently hear?
TIMMY TURNER'S VOICEEE!
Whats the last pinkie promise you made, and to who?
erm... something to do with presents.. haha
Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
i dont think so...
Is there anyone home?
everyone BUT my sis
The person you fell hardest for died today, how would you feel?
"you left... without saying goodbye.... you left me hanging..."
Have you kissed someone in 09 that means a lot to you?
NOPEEEEEEE.
Something tragic just happened, does your facial expression show it?
erm... should be...
*no wonder when something happens & i go tuition after that, Ryan would say,
"eh u ok or not?? u look so stress! chill ok?!"
Do you miss someone?
someone, no! some people, YESSSSS!
So, what do you want for your birthday?
a birthday card is nice. i dont ask for presents lah dey!
Does any part of your body hurt right now?
haha.. shhh! dont tell u!
Would you ever work at McDonalds?
if i could, i would? haha
Are any of your Facebook TOP friends gay/bi/ lesbian?
nope!
Would you care if you saw the person you like, kissing someone else?
yea.. pretty much....
Did you see a boy today that made you smile?
i've been home...
What are you doing tomorrow?
slacking/studying?
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
secret! shhhhhhh!
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
NOPEEEEEEEEEE
Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
SMS, yea
Do you love anyone right now?
Yea! loadsssssss
Is it easy to make you cry?
kind of? depends....
i cant cry on my own.. sad siaaaaaaa
Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yea... 2 of them...
Were you happy when you woke up?
No! cos i didn't wake up earlier than YOU!
Does the person you like, like you back?
i trust he does. <3
If any, name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
FLY WITH ME - jonas
Do you want someone to call you right now?
yea...
If someone liked you right now would you want to know?
maybe?
Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
not anymore
When was the last time you had butterflies?
Yesterday!
Who do you want to see right now?
everyoneeeeeeeee
Did you mean "I love you" when you said it last?
OBVIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!
Do you get upset over the opposite sex easily?
haha.. ask jing wen!
When you say you don't care do you mean it?
not really...
What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
*blush* *turn away after that*
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
YUPPP
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with ?
jing wen! or was is bron??
Where were you at 4:00 this morning ?
on my bed sleeping!
What's the cd in your player ?
*empty....*
Can you count to ten in more than one language and what language ?
english, malay, english, chinese, ENGLISH, *spanish till 7 only.. :'(*
Who is the last person to tell you they love you ?
EH KPO LAH! SECRETTTTTTTT!!! haha
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
nope.. :(
later ok?
Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color ?
it not most natural.. cos its TOTALLY NATURAL!
Is your bed big enough for you ?
YUPPPPP!
What was the reason behind the last time you laughed ?
RUBBISH CRAP SAID BY 3 BOYS!
Have you ever laughed so hard you cried ?
YUPP
What is your favourite thing about being sick ?
rite now, only the fact i dont see mdm 'rose'
Do you look at the keyboard when you type ?
yupp.. haha!
i know what you're thinking! so shush!
When was the last time someone confessed to liking you ?
June.. :P
Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward ?
YESSSSSSS!!
MEMANG BETOL!!!!!!
SI!!!!!
AGREEABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you like to look up at the stars at night ?
if there are any, then yes!
Bright or dark room ?
Bright!!!!!
haha,
i got nothing better to do,
i know!
haha
you proved to me
that i am still your gf...
and you proved to me,
that i was wrong..
you are truely...
the only prince i love...
unwritten! atSunday, October 18, 2009
