so long nvr post!!!
come i tell u all one dream i had!
a hated one!


REMEMBER!
TIS IS JUST A DREAM!
REAL LIFE I'M NOT TAT BAD!
*maybe....*


i dreamt of being in the malay room,
all my primary school friends were there
eventhough its bedokg reen SEC!
there was... min, rid, mahdir, fifah
ishah, arshad and dunno who somemore!

then class ended...
(btw, rid was my childhood sweetheart...)
miss dee went out then surprisingly rid went to fifah
and pick her up(like cradle)!!
wattheshit??!!
then were like talking to each other lah!
then they hugged and stuff!
errrr......(green eyes much!)

*sorry ah! the pict got red eyes instead of green...*



they went down by main staircase but i didnt follow.
went downstairs alone
and cursing fifah(JUST A DREAM AH!)
then, dunno how, the next day came..

went into MT class again...
rid and fifah were like seriously getting on my nerves!!!!!
then my ex came!
WTF!!!
he sat beside arshad then arshad was like,..
"you are..? a transfer..?"
he was like..
"ya. my mom agreed into letting me join ur school.
i wanna find my gf.."

i was (all the way) covering my face wif a book lah!
then miss dee was like,..
"hey you! can you put down tat book!
why are u covering ur face?!"
*in malay ofcourse*
then i cant remember wat i answered ah!
but i remembered covering my face the whole period
and HE doesn't even know it's me!

dunno why but i dont wanna see him for some reason.. haiyo!
watever lah!
*btw, you do NOT wanna meet him!
he's not all tat.........*


REMEMBER!
TIS IS JUST A DREAM!
REAL LIFE I'M NOT TAT BAD!


ok ah!
wanna sleep!
tomorrow watch CARTOON!! ;P

haha! byeeeeeeeesssss~~~~~~~~~

this was soo by me llah
den budak tu nak ambik credit
sebab die tableperson kot!
mother freaking ****er

i had to go for sj so cant give it to her lah
i wanted to give it to her face to face sey!
actually afifah and wei lun were supposed to give it
along wif me
but NOOO!!!
they wanted the credit too!
it was my hard work blasting my brain
just to write this freakingly freaking poem!
*which was the best i've written*

err....
i got no idea why they like giving attitude towards me sey!
wish they can just come to me and tell me....
asked my BFs wat to do..
most of them say
"they not happy, not happy ah!
you ignore them lor!"
the boys say tat too...
maybe the cope better
when it comes to these problems...
haiz.....

well tomorrow finally tasting victory!! WOOHOO!!
FINALLY GETTING PROMOTED
YET SATISFIED CAUSE WE EARNED IT THE HARD WAY!!
hard way because its the only way lah!
they say,
shortcuts are for losers in life.
you know how i know?
coz of experience... heh...

anyways, got LOADS of things to do!
last minute things lah!
byeeeeeesssssss~~~~~~~~

come, i join wei jia write poem

we've gone through the day
we've gone through the night
now i finally know
wat is my fright

the fright of losing
so many ones
the feeling of emptyness
now its job is done

emptyness taking over
the whole of my heart
how emptied i feel
now tat you're lost

trapped in a world
wif no one to guild
trapped wif no hope
LIKE, WAT IS MY LIFE!

all alone in the darkness
crying my sorrows
until i see the light
creating a new world infront of my eyes
trying to stand up
and found you by my side

i felt a sensational feeling
like never before
a feeling of love
a sense of belonging
a friend in need
is a friend indeed
a forever last hope
a forever lasting friendship...

when i lost you,
i found myself still surrounded wif friends
when i lost you,
i tought it was the end

but looking up i see
i'm never alone
the friends i've met
will always be close


wat shit sia!
i dunno wat i writing!
all crap sia!!
if you like it, maybe you something wrong...
cause....




























































i'm writing blindly
i'm writing the first words tat pop into my mind
but in a way,
its a true story.....
gtg, homework havent finnish!
byeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~

i dont know why but i feel empty
its like i lost some ppl in mind
yet met new ppl too
even the new ppl cant replace the old....


maybe its because i'm changing...
not in a physical kind of way
but in attitude kind of change...
maybe i wasn't cut out to remain wif old friends...
(great now i'm typing like L)


i've found so many new friends...
i've recognised many kinds of friends...
some good, some bad, and some undescribable...
people like... hmm:
-weilun
-sheini
-afifah
-ishah
-shannen
(even)
-jingwen
-jac
-lucas
-sa'dan
-keith


in class, i feel the sense of belonging because of these people...
these ppl are the reason i like school more than home..
nowadays, i feel like never going home...
(even if mdm Az is a pain in the ass)


people like
bronson, nathaniel, weida(sometimes), weijia,
valerie, lynyi are always there for me...
whenever i feel left out or sad,
they somehow know it and try to help...
but in weijia's case, she sometimes force me
or make jokes to her how i feel..
then i'll eventually start laughing.


sometimes, hearing the words,
"are you okay?"
is enough to make me feel better
if you mean it ofcourse...
some ppl know others' problems
but they still ask this question no matter wat...
thats the good thing about them.

freakingly miss u all!

ISSIT FUCKINGLY WRONG TO HAVE
A MALE BEST FRIEND??

IS IT WRONG TO HANG OUT
WIF BOYS RATHER THAN GIRLS??

IS IT WRONG TO HAVE MORE
BOY FRIENDS THEN GIRL FRIENDS???

NO RITE!!

THOSE FUCKING IDIOTS LAH!
GO TELL MANY MANY PEOPLE I FLIRT!
WAH FUCKER SIA!
YOU GO FIND OUT WHO THEY ARE YOURSELF!!
IDIOTIC FOOL...

(to that fucking idiot:)
When a girl hangs out with boys,
it means they are LONELY!
When a boy hangs out with girls,
it either means they're gay or they're flirtinng!

moron!! a simple rule like that also she doesn't know!
what bloody shit sia!!!!!!!!!!
i blame her for the use of all the vulgarities!

wish i can just pick up a chair and smack her sia!
like this



bloody shit!!