Monday, August 17, 2009
today was oh so funnn!lol!
i went like super duper hyper even though SOMEONE left me in the morning!haha!so i was like a mad woman lah today...morning passed so quickly!lol!morning was funn!i and yasmin were mad woman!jing wen emo-ed awhilebut yasmin made her hyper! LOL!i and isha were the first kecoh ppl lah...then came yasmin!haha!so hazel joined in! weee~~~interaction was bleh..didn't really like sports alot..like to play for fun only! hehemt was boringgg! haha!but cos of my besties especially min and isha,it was fun!we were at tech room..sat directly below aircon..was FREAKING COLDDDD!they didn't believe me when i said i couldn't feel much!so i touched all there hands!THEN they realised i was freaking cold! haha!amielia warmed my hands for me! hehe!cikgu made us late for chemmm!mr teng face was like.... precious lahh! haha!recess was fun!i and yasmin went wide! haha!yasmin wanted to emo..then she made stupid faces..amielia and i laughed so hard that yasmin couldn't emo! LOLwent upstairs..saw arshad so chatted with him..but i remembered we changed personalities..i was yasmin!amielia was amira!and min was melia!i had to stand far away from arshad if not 'amira' would kill me! haha!arshad was so emoing lahh!then radzi came..i told him and he scared radzi to the max!HE SCREAMED LIKE A GIRL!!!! haha!his expression?? PRICELESS! LOL(ps, i tink this was lunch! haha!)english was very hot!maths brought our spirits down..but lunch came..we went mad again!(ps below is then recess)someone was sad.then he showed me np room key..i took it awayand he took my stuff!was chasing him lahhh!physics was as for usual..did some revision..then got test..did my best...i love after school!went home with min..plus met someone in the bus..he gave me chocolate! lol!then i gave afifah, yasmin, myself and him some...ok lah ehk the chocolate....then went to playground to play! haha!2 words to describe,"deprived childhood"LOL!we took loads of picts cos nothing to doo!and munn and minn told me bout their dreams! very cool lahh!lastly...i wanna say,i'm gonna stop blogging here after saying something can?cos i really got no mood so yea...(to you,sorry but really i cant keep it in anymore..)i'm seriously sorry ok..but i just got some questions in mind..since when did i talk about him with you guys?since when did i start the topic bout him?i have never acted infront of anyone ok?!i've been quiet while in sjabcos i got the cold shoulder from all of you ok..i find it hard to talk to any one of you...i nvr talk to you all cos i got nothing to say...i tried asking what i did wrong.i asked bron.he said i complain alot..sure but i nowadays nvr ok?!i've been silent all the way every week in sjab ok?!then he said,i like to talk about him alot..eh i nvr start talking bout him!usually i get teased only!i'm proud, i knowbut i have never ever talked bout him with you all!i know you all wont be happy if i did!mostly is jiong hong or ying jie or some other person talk one! not me!then everyone else will just join in..end up, i get teased!you tell me,what have i said about him to ou all???have i told you all what we did,what we always do,when we go out?!?!no rite?plus,the things i say to the guys,are all for real ok!i have never lied to them....i complain alot yes!but they're willing to listen...I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO PITY ME!I WANT EVERYTHING TO GO LIKE IT USED TO BE!i act like nothing has happened cos nothing really did!what happened you tell me?!the only thing that happened is you're angry at me...i am willing to leave..i'm willing to give up my pose..i'm willing to let you all enjoy being in sjab without me..i'm really willing to...i know,the longer i stay,the more conflicts there will be...so i'll ask my parents to write a letter or something..i will leave just to make you all happy ok?i rather you be happy than being angry at me....i'm really sorry..
i'll be quiet for awhile..
i know i'm supposed to be hyper..
just dont mention this problem
and i'll be the normal me..
trust me..
i'm much happier once i get out of here..
i dont want anyone to see me suffer..
so writing it out somwhere else is better..
better than here or keeping it in..
unwritten! atMonday, August 17, 2009
