no1 knows how i feel. seriously cos words cant describe it.... i cant tell them cos i cant phrase it.... i such a confused person... everytime i calm myself down, someone will call me a bitch... guess who lah? me... i got no idea why..... i'm trying my best to always think of all the wrongs i've done but soon after, my mind will be "bitch, stop being a bitch" "you're such a bitch.. cant u stop it bitch?" seriously pressured by myself... i'm serously sorry for all i've done to everyone especially weida i'm seriously sorry but i cant stop tat voice in my head... i cant take it it's hurting everyday to hear, "you're a bitch" in your head and not know how to stop it... it hurts.. it really does... everyone's try to ask me wats wrong, i just cant explain it... i can take all the physical violence in the world, but mentally, i'm never prepared.... i'm different person every minute... ask bron and isha.. (this friday) one minute i'm hyper, the next thing isha knows it, i was depressed then bron some came, i was still depressed the next thing he saw was me crying... i got no idea why.... he was surprised to see me that way... so was isha.. she said, "u were soo happy just now.." "u seem so happy, wat happened??" she kept saying but i didn't say...... then i just replied, "i dont wanna go sjab.. i seriously dont want." "but how? i'm aoic, how can i not come?!" they tried to convince me but i just went... so yea... this week my moodswing were crazy... now then i know what's been going on... isha and the others told me bout it, then i just realised what i did after school end on friday.. tried to think and remember but couldn't mostly.... so yea... i'm sincerely sorry.. i really feel like giving up on sj i really do.... but its embarrassing to see, NPCC - SILVER NCC - SILVER SJAB - BRONZE it hurts to see sjab suffer.... so now enduring all these to help bgsj.. thrust me, i do not wanna go anco, but its needed to get silver for bgsj... now endure... later..? i dunno... my emotions are caught up, even my tuition teacher can see through me.... he knows wat i've been through... i talked to him before.... he went through only part of my life, the parents fighting part and giving up part... so everytime he sees me, he'll say, "endure for now. u can do better. u are better than this. i know u can." i just try.. now i wont know wats gonna happen.... i really dont....
unwritten! atSaturday, May 23, 2009
I Am The Only Me
Nurul Amira here!
Call me aMira! haha
was in tkps,
currently in bgss,
NOW 3E3!
my fav date,
18 SEPTEMBER!
am a virgo! (the one that waits.. lols) GOOGLE SHORTCUT!! :
GOOGLE!
i wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away...
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away...
I wrote your name in my heart,
and that is where it's going to stay forever!
WANTS TO KNOW
who am i?
what kind of person am i?
who am i to you?
am i the one for you?
IS TELLING YOU you are the only one for me
dont tell me its a dream
promise me you'll still be here
i know you will survive,
so just hold on,
and i'll still be there for you..
cos i am just a heartbeat away❤
