wahhhhhh!
HELLO BLOGGY! HEHE!
shhh! no one remembers you..
GOOD! hehe!

ok shut up..
i sound like some little kid...
omg got loads and loads to tell you!
(in case u readers dunno, i type like my bloggy's my friend. :) )
lads to complain also but UGH!

u know,
that night i was thinking about STUFF..
then i think i know why i'm not mature yet...
i 'lost' my maturity and i have no idea how to get it back... :((

it all started from our break up i guess...
i got kinda depressed and like gave up on afew stuff..
then (i confirmed this) i became despo for attention...
not like my sjab mates apreciated me there...
i know i was the cause of conflict in there...
i let go because of those two reasons PLUS i couldnt find my motivation anymore..
*you were my motivation to continue but you gave up on me...*
*gave up on us...*

truthfully, i didnt go searching for another guy...
i thought Min liked him..
i tried oushing them together but i guess things didnt go as planned...
and turns out, Him and i were pushed together... :/ :) ?

so yea.. He became my motivation in my studies.
Him and my tuition teacher.
they had high hopes on me thats for sure!
but they helped and guided me in my studies...
He got his friends to teach me (he couldnt do it.. haha...)
and my teacher challenged me by giving me those "AWSOMELY" tough papers...
i was forced to find the answers myself...
work it out step by (Freaking) step...

so first depression was... handled? :/

then.. ugh... lets just say there was round 2 and 3 of depression...
round 3 isnt over yet... :(
wont be over i guess?
shouldnt write it down..

oh well..
write again soon? :)
nights!

maybe my decision was wrong?

stop lying to me dude!
said we'll still be friends...
but you dont even say hi or look at me.
you're avoiding me. just say it.
bye.