when you're with me

2011-09-13T19:27:00.001+08:00

wahhhhhh!
HELLO BLOGGY! HEHE!
shhh! no one remembers you..
GOOD! hehe!

ok shut up..
i sound like some little kid...
omg got loads and loads to tell you!
(in case u readers dunno, i type like my bloggy's my friend. :) )
lads to complain also but UGH!

u know,
that night i was thinking about STUFF..
then i think i know why i'm not mature yet...
i 'lost' my maturity and i have no idea how to get it back... :((

it all started from our break up i guess...
i got kinda depressed and like gave up on afew stuff..
then (i confirmed this) i became despo for attention...
not like my sjab mates apreciated me there...
i know i was the cause of conflict in there...
i let go because of those two reasons PLUS i couldnt find my motivation anymore..
*you were my motivation to continue but you gave up on me...*
*gave up on us...*

truthfully, i didnt go searching for another guy...
i thought Min liked him..
i tried oushing them together but i guess things didnt go as planned...
and turns out, Him and i were pushed together... :/ :) ?

so yea.. He became my motivation in my studies.
Him and my tuition teacher.
they had high hopes on me thats for sure!
but they helped and guided me in my studies...
He got his friends to teach me (he couldnt do it.. haha...)
and my teacher challenged me by giving me those "AWSOMELY" tough papers...
i was forced to find the answers myself...
work it out step by (Freaking) step...

so first depression was... handled? :/

then.. ugh... lets just say there was round 2 and 3 of depression...
round 3 isnt over yet... :(
wont be over i guess?
shouldnt write it down..

oh well..
write again soon? :)
nights!

2010-09-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

maybe my decision was wrong?

2010-07-08T22:15:00.002+08:00

stop lying to me dude!
said we'll still be friends...
but you dont even say hi or look at me.
you're avoiding me. just say it.
bye.

2010-06-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

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bye...

2010-06-25T17:55:00.000+08:00

PUSPA!

haha.
omg, a girl should melt listening to this.
kind of lah.
ok fine maybe just me.
=.=
(malay song btw)

errrrrmm
lets see...
I PASSED KOTO!
hahahahaha!
oh shoot!
havent polished boots/do barret.
i miss daoyi. dunno why.
lol!

oh!
to i dunno whats this person name cos i dont want her to be in my list of friends,
i passed the ball and you didnt pass it back.
so i'm not wasting any time on you.
see you!
X)

oh oh oh
plus plus plus
star struck rocks! hahaha!
very cute!
boy: you like me dont you?!
girl: you wish!
boy stands up and pulls girl's hand and go to the beach.
ohsocute!
XP

homework obviously havent done so..
i'm dead.
ok then...
june wasn't that fun ah.
liked going shopping with my couz!
she went crazy! LOL

ok needa go off.
cos someone made me mad and i'm not supposed to make a big deal out of it.
so now going to eat ice cream to chill! XD

2010-06-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

Guy said WHAT?!

know what?!?!
this i-will-not-comment malaysian guy saw me in this shop.
(was in malaysia btw)
then i avoided him.
"mat motor" konon
then he suddenly passed me and said,
"hi... cantik nampak?"
translation,
"hi... aren't you looking pretty?"
so i went roll eyes roll eyes roll eyes at him and my bro saw.
i think he wanted to asked me whats up but didnt. lol!
*shivers*
despo.
=.=

i think ____________ guys are sooooo DESPO.
haha!
my cousins said
if she could,
she'd either,
-shout at the guys who keep staring at us
-dig the persons' eyes
-(i tink) slap them.
hahahahahahaha!
and i totally agreed with her! XD

best thing bout going malaysia,
i get to be with my AWSM cousins
(even if it's not all of them that i hang out with)
AND
i got to know my little cousins and little 'cousins'
haha!
my little 'cousins' are my neice but they're too young to understand that
we're their AUNTS AND UNCLES.
eeyer, i'd feel so old if they called my aunt. lol!

ok update next time. wanna sleep before someone scolds me.
(and i dont mean any of my family members! haha!)

2010-05-20T18:43:00.000+08:00

i hate life.. =.="
wanna know what happened?!
cos no one believed dme when i said this happened...

last week,
stupidity hit me in the face..
i failed my testS then got demoralised by something..
i think my tuition teacher ah..
(not to insult him cos he's the best tuition teacher ever but)
asshole you know!
make fun of nurses...
say its THE easiest job/course EVER... =.="
then he asked who wanna be doctor.
i didnt put up hand ah.
lazy lah!
then he told them that they WOULD NOT make it...
cant get the job ah.
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF?!?!

weekend,
parents fought in public.
not big deal cos mom didnt wanna make such a big deal out of it.
they quarreled while having dinner over some super small matter...
mom got super angry and didnt eat.
both of them gave each other the silent treatment..
we got scared...
so we sat infront of them, eating in silence too...
i tell you,
they pick THE best time to fight lah can?!
last time, i had streaming when they started fighting.
now, OLEVELSSSSSSSS!
grrr....

so now got intensive MT going on..
did ALOT of papers and guess what?!
i failed almost EVERY ONE OF THEM...
i'm sooo........... dead lah!
so monday, went home,
went to the toilet and totally broke down into tears...
bathed and still in tears...
tried to stay positive but i couldn't...
came out, hid my face from everyone and stayed in my room.
lied on my bed still sobbing.
next thing i know, my body became hot....

mom came home and saw me lying on the bed.
she came close and placed her hand on my forehead and arm.
straight away she knew something was wrong.
got fever soon after.
didn't come to school next day cos i know i wouldnt make it.
didn't do any w, or revised anything.
so told mom i didnt wanna come school and she allowed.

so yea. there goes my story.
whatever..
haha
anyways I BUMPED INTO THIS STRANGER YESTERDAYYYY!!!!
sooo embarassing!!!!!
its a HE somemore!!!!
=.="""
i going out of the tuition centre.
then i looking back while walking forward.
then HE ALSO looking back while walking forward but he's outside.
when i went out,
we coincidently turned our heads and banged into each other!
i walked one big round around him to get my slipper while we said sorry to each other.
then his MAMAT friends were laughing... =.=""""""""""""""""""""""""

ok so nothing else thats exciting happened in my life. haha!
i tink.
oh excluding the fact that i
Accidentally Accidentally met irna in the theatre.
hahahahahahahahaha!
only irna and yasmin knows why there're 2 "accidentally"s! XP

ok gtg.
got MORE malay to finish up.
byeeee

2010-04-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

i trust
i crushed
i destroyed
i came back
i grew up

omgosh..
i believe them..
batch 8 seriously rocks....
watching the video brought back forgotten memories...
and it made me look back..
how much of a childish person a was...
it was touching..
couldve cried but my brother there lah!
cant cry with him looking at me! =.=
haha ok...

friends:
they laugh
they gossip
they talk
they cry
they fight
they piss each other off
they do all sorts of things...
but 2 things are for sure
-no matter good or bad,
they always remember you...
-at times when they fight,
they regret making that first move...

*quote*

2010-04-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

ku hendak menjadi seorang peneroka.
ku tidak ingin memusnahkan kehidupan sesiapa lagi.
ku tahu bahawa kadang kala, ku telah mencetus perasaan orang yang disayangi ku,
dan ku hanya ingin meminta maaf.

grr, my malay very... =.=
N.C. N.C.
ok i try again...

ku hendak menjadi seorang penunjuk
karena ku tahu bahawa ku boleh jika ku cuba.
ku ingin menjadi seorang pemimpin.
karena ku tahu, inilah kekuatan ku.

ku berjanji kepada diriku,
ku tidak akan menghina sesiapa
selagi mereka tidak melakukan apa-apa yang akan mencetus fikiran/perasaan ku.
ku akan cuba sedaya-upaya untuk melaksanakan janji ku kepada diriku sendiri.

ok, not bad for a C+ student. lol
i wanna show you this conv,
wait ah...

me: told my (i nvr knew) true (super duper true) bestfriend whats wrong.

her reply:
"Why didn't you tell us earlier? Especially me. Anyway, you should know that no matter what, we'll stick by you. If the others dont, i will." ...... and so on and so forth.

then another one,

me: same thing lah cos something pushed me alot.

someone:
(not from word to word cos i forgot lah.. haha. only what i recall)
issit worth it to ____________ (fill in yourself lah) ? and why must you be ______(fill in the blanks) when you know there are people like ______&______&_____&_____....(fill in the blanks) to back you up cos ______&______&_____&_____....(fill in the blanks) know who's to ________(fill in the blanks) ?!
(then got somemore ah but i dunno how to put it into proper sentences. lol!)

ok so point:
vulnerability is such a pain in the neck.. haha!
yea, after being coucilled by some (ok fine ALOT of) people,
i know how to overcome vulnerability! wooh!
thanx to Nat for making my first try a successful one!
(bet you he dunno what i talking about!)

lalalalalalalalalala.
oh and i made my parents feel super worried..
haha
cos when i came back,
face was super duper uber red. LOL

ok cant blog, my parents home. lol
byeee
(i love cun saja-sleeq! haha!)

2010-04-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

goshhhhhhh!

i got only 'fe' things to say...

- i think talking/smsong to someone older than you is fun! XD

- i get inspired by people super duper too easily... =.=

- i hate being control by parents sometimes... feels sooo... err... no freedom? idk..

- i feel sooo.. errr... empty now.

- i realise that some people dont know how to cheer others up.. just a hand full knows how to...

- i think/know that i'm so different nowadays..

- i found a new sms-ing buddy cos this person always got alot of subjects to talk about. LOL! :)

- i wanna make a promise to myself to beat SOME people in my life for exams. haha

- i hate romantic stories cos they're romantic. but i love them cos they're romantic. (try to understand! haha)

- i KNOW this week was fun! except for thursday.. MIN-t didn't come... X(

- i just realised min teck took off braces! OMGOSHHHHHH! HAHA!

- i had THE weirdest dream that lasted only a few sentences... X)

- i cant cry most of the time now cos my eyes got used to me resisting to cry ALOT these past few weeks...

ok.. i forgot wat else i wanted to write... haha!
byeee

2010-01-17T15:53:00.001+08:00

sorry sa'dan..
but i just cant do it...

2010-01-17T15:32:00.001+08:00

feels weird saying goodbye to you..
i dont like it..
i'll nvr say it anymore...

2010-01-16T16:36:00.000+08:00

no more..
please...
no more..

i cant change fonts and stuff..
very sad.. X(
nvm,
i'm not blogging anymore...
know why?
go find out!
i'm not gonna bother telling anyone anything...
so might as well dont ask.

olevels' vibe is here.
cant tahan any longer...
cant wait till 30 jan.
cant wait for april too.
the other dates..
nah..
not even my birthday can cheer me up..
so yea...
good bye...
forever...

2010-01-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

i just.
gah.
nevermind....

i learnt.
people say nvm when they're....
fedup,
lazy to explain,
cant take it,
cancel wat they wanna say,
forgot,
and so much more...

gosh,
i tink i'm gonna be like min in her blog...
i'm the
"when you push me down, i WILL go down"
type of person..
and i cant help but be negative nowadays...

got so much to say
but
so little words...

to her,
i ran out of sorries.
i'm the cause of you being upset.
you dont have to say..
i know.

to him,
i think you deserve what i earned.
you'd be much suitable for my role(s)..
now, i see your true colours...
so i dont get it..
why didn't they choose you to be A***?
i tink i dont deserve it anymore.

to them,
i know i've been 'quiet'
but cant help it...
i tink i got too much neg thinking ah...
so yea.

to him, her and her,
i wanna make a diff.
you said i didn't know the dark side yet.
its because i know that there is a dark side
that i wanna continue.
make a diff.
make it better.

to her,
why cant you see?
not everyone works better when you use your style?!
you're pushing us down,
and instead of us going up,
we're falling.
everytime you push us,
we just go down faster.
why cant you see?
we'll NEVER get better!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
sometimes...
i wish someone could teach me how to scream...
like seriously scream...
i cant...
pathetic..
i know...

*next time,
i'll sing "free to be me" to cheer me up.
cant relate to me,
but somehow feels nice...

read it:
Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

sometimes,
its like its not true....

2009-12-31T22:13:00.002+08:00

a life girl!

omgosh..
i cant wait till school reopens!
ahhh!
ISHA I MISS YOU!
(or maybe just the crazy part of you ;P)
haha
i miss talking to my 'big sista'
and talking to Fatty
and talking to Skinny
and talking to Nat!
and talking my that hazel NUT!
oh and mel tooo!!
but i think i miss talking to the MOON most!
haha!
oh and my MINT ice cream TOO!
gonna meet her FIRST OF THE FIRST! haha!

ok going crazy! grr..
know why i'm hyped up??
cos rite,
just watched this super cute cartoon.
bout couples lah ape lagi?!
haha!
then the girl name was angel
the guy was matt
and blah blah blah...
i called the guy idiot in my mind =.=""
serious!!! he's so... grr...
haha!

ok now feel like eating ice cream!
woohoo!
lol
i feel like going library to 'borrow books'
haha!
i know,
yasmin's probably laughing reading this.
she'll be like,
"OMG! AMIRA?! BORROW BOOKS?!"
LOL

i feel like finding photos..
ok i go find..

i want hair like Yunaaaaaa!!!! X(

i wanna be hyper like HERRRR! haha

i tink i look like her at home... *except clothes ah*
cos rite,
i always tie hair high high then i always play with mimi...
LOL

(why do you think i worte it at your phone?)
JUST BE YOURSELF!
NO ONE'S APPROVAL IS NEEDED! haha

agreed X)

cancel the beer part please!
we're good girls! haha

ok enough rubbish for now!
haha!
nights!
oh and
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLEEEEE!
*another step closer to olevels*

2009-12-31T18:15:00.000+08:00

LEARN IT

LOVE IT

LIVE IT!

but dont forget,

to remember it!

2009-12-31T17:19:00.000+08:00

2009-12-31T16:48:00.000+08:00

ITS JUST A
dream

you know watttttt????????

i got THE weirdest dream EVERRRR!

ok maybe not ever lah kan? haha

lets recal....

hmm...

i slept,

i dreamt about going out with nuriz, jean, and val.

(i know, npcc girls)

went to this erm.. place?

very dark but very cool.

dont ask wat was there

cos all i remember was it was big, cool, and has a cafteria.

lol

bought tickets (to pass?) and went in.

while going in got some guy who looks like joakim sey.

he looks angry at me?

he came to us and said,

"hey mira, congrats!"

me:

"huh?"

him:

"you know. bout you and shazli getting together."

me:

"WHAT?!?!?!?! O.O""""""" "

the girls:

"what?! when?! why?! omg.. =.=" "

*girls walked off...

him:

"good luck *evil smile* "

me:

" =.=' freaking person.. I'M NOT WITH SHAZLIIII! "

went off to find the girls.

walked and walked...

people kept talking bout me.

(SUPER IRRITATINGGGG)

talk about me and shazli pulak tu! grrrrrrr.....

then finally saw the girls.

saw bron and arshad standing with them.

i came by,

the girls roled their eyes and just kept quiet.

i looked at the guys...

they loked else where...

me:

hey?

girls:

what are you doing here? and where's shazli?

me:

I AM NOT WITH HIM! I'M WITH ARSHAD!

come on arshad, tell them!

arshad:

*looked away...*

me:

look, he told everyone i weren't with arshad anymore.

he told them i was with shazli...

you've all gotta help me!

girls:

ok ok...

you've gotta prove to them that you are still together...

hmm

*eveyone thinking...*

one of the girls:

OH I KNOW!

*... whispers to me...*

me:

WHAT?!?!?! you have got to be kidding me!

i... i.. i cant!

girls:

just do it! we know you can..

me:

so i pull arshad's hand,

and went to the centre of the room.

with bron and the girls looking...

i shouted,

"hey, i'm not with shazli!

get it right!

i'm with arshad!"

then i.. *shhh, secret lahsssss*

so everyone went *GASP!*

and bron and the girl began cheering and stuff.

everyone had that priceless :O faces haha...

ok THE END!

HAHA!

guess what i did?!?!?!?!?! (secret!)

haha you'll nvr guess!

ok wanna go eat more chocolate before my brain malfunctions.

BYESSS!

2009-12-29T11:59:00.000+08:00

sorry,

blog officially dead.

you may move on. :)

2009-12-22T17:35:00.002+08:00

i cant stop thinking about ~~'it'~~...

2009-12-16T13:32:00.001+08:00

again, and again..
and
AGAIN?!?!
=.=""

busy?
yes!
why?
camp!
so?
flag!
and..?
performance lahhh!
haha.
i answered your questions already!!

ok last week,
met up with ma'am then sir.
our presentaions still got touch ups to do.
but decided not to put everything on screen.
instead, we'll be saying..
waited till saturday to come and guess wat happened?!?!?!?!
MOI CLASSROOM WAS CANCELED!!!!
=.=""""
BUT
moi footdrill and theory paper was still on.. grrrr....

theory dont talk lah..
lost alot of marks there...
footdrill...?
i and weijia were first (cos i want! haha)
and i came back first too.
talked to F-sir and ZM-sir...
know why only these 2??
cos i was ISOLATED from the rest.. =.=
talked bout otc...
and other stuff..
after that, i didn't really look down on myself that much..

ok so the rest of my days have been boring lah..
just that you will not believe how many times our advance have seen each others' faces!!
we keep meeting everyday lahhhh! =.=
then JX finally said,
"eh you all realised?
we've been meeting for 6 days straight sia!"
C said,
"nvm, can bond more."
so i said,
"more like get sick of each others' faces lahhh!"
then we laughed all the way. lol!
thursday > meet ma'am
friday > meet sir
saturday > exam day
sunday > flag
monday > flag + dance
tuesday > dance
wednesday (today) > mascot!
wow!!!
but i nvr join today..
not feeling well..
feeling worst cos of boredome... =.=

ok..
i got bored again..
all that left to say now is,
WISH ADVANCE ALL THE BEST!
haha
gonna miss being online and stuff..
but thank goodness its only 4 days! haha
(gonna edit tonite.. gtg now bye!)

2009-12-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

CLOSED UNTIL
*who knows when!*

haha.
wont be posting much..
until end of camp atleast..
of after exams..
(which is tomorrow...)
just wanna le out afew stuff before
DROWNING SELF WITH NOTES!!!!

now i finally understand..
what you meant by competition..
after really getting to know all of them,
i come to realised...
JH IS a tough oppenent...
so is B...
i wont know if i'd make it through..
but i will try...
i really want best C!
others may be like..
"i wanna get promoted infront of others sia.."
and all sorts...
i want it to prove to many..
parents, aunts, relatives...
and so much more...
that i AM actually good at something...
sjab means so much...
but seeing, meeting these opponents..
i feel like i could say bye bye to best C...
nvm...
i'll still try..

2009-12-07T22:57:00.001+08:00

i updated!
http://boygirl-facts.blogspot.com/
haha!

2009-12-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

kind of came across this profile..

so i read it..

(cancellation is my fault! hahas)

guys

they should:

♥ actually listen

♥ treat your friends rightly

♥ tease you (in a nice way)

♥ notice the small things (like you got your hair cut)

♥ have good taste in music

♥ ~~have good fashion sense~~

♥ love you for who you are

♥ lend you their coat or hoody if you're cold

♥ ~~treat you like a sort of queen~~

♥ help you with things

♥ be a true gentleman

♥ care about you no matter what

♥ be generally awesome :D

♥ hold your hand

♥ know when to leave you alone

♥ be nice to your family, even if they're the most annoying people on earth

♥ have things in common with you

they shouldn't:

♥ forget about their friends

♥ be clingy or obsessive

♥ lie at all

♥ keep bringing up past relationships

♥ neglect you

♥ start arguments

♥ hit you

♥ slag you off

♥ be insensitive

♥ push your buttons (i.e annoy you)

♥ get with another girl as soon as you break up

♥ fancy your friends

♥ literally beg for stuff

♥ totally turn their nose up when you mention something they don't like

and much more.. i could go on for ages

haha.

its cool!

guess the guy/girl became fed up or something...

wish i could write down a list of

"wat guys should/not do"

but it'd mean i'm finding someone PERFECT!

i dont need perfect.

i just like normal (but perfect to me) :)

2009-12-03T18:46:00.001+08:00

forever...

gosh camp was...
unbelievable!!!
it was...
torture? haha!
but worth it..
all (or some) of us were really pushed to our limits...
but i feel as though many of us can do much more.
ESPECIALLY JIONG HONG!!!
i seriously dunno where's his limit!!!!
crazy bgsjian!
haha

gonna be busy these 2 weeks.
wonder if we'll all survive!
haha...
i regret not accepting being course ic...
after second thoughts,
i figured it'd be fun...
nvm, there's always another chance!
i got like mixed feelings now!
i'm excited, yet scared.
i'm happy, yet sad.
ahhhhh...
and because of my su**ish past,
my present's affected...

i cant explain oh so many things...
unfair lah!
example:
why cant i shout?
why cant i scream?
why i dont say much?
why i dont let out my feelings?
why i dont venge my anger?
why i'm never confident?
and LOADS MOREEEE!!!!!
plus i realised something...
nowadays,
i tend to ~~cry~~ more..
but AT THE WRONG TIMEEEEEEEE!
grr...

i cant get the worst scene from training camp out of my mind...
wanna know what it was??
it was when i got screamed/yelled at so loud
that (i tink) the whole block could hear..
and this happened in a classroom....
gosh..
stupid mistake made and lesson learnt!

best course
best course
best course
best course
best corp
best corp
best corp
best corp
best anything
best anything
best anything
best anything.....
AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANNA WIN SOMETHINGGGGGGG!!!!
alamak....... =.=

ok got course and camp to look forward to..
oh wait, i mean,
'look forward' to! hahas

today....
i ate ice cream in the morning!!!!!
cool rite?!?!?!
went out to watch NEW MOON!
its super...
*melt!!!!!*
*(malay>>) cair!!!*
hahahahahahahahahahahaha!
had oh so much fun!
cool tau!!!!
especially when watching it with my
movie partner/pokemon partner!!!! haha!!!
(sorry bout wat happened before we parted.)
i just realised,
I FORGOT TO DO SOMETHING TO YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!
AHHHHH!!!!
have been craving to do it but... nvm ah...

I WANNA MSG ________!!!!!
goshhhhhh!
nvm, nvr see him/her online anyways...
to ________,
YOUR SACARSM IS NOT FUNNY!
pnly sometimes!
not like mine! haha!

ok,
i got bored using comp..
gonna go polish boots!!!
byesssss!
(no colours and stuff.. lazy lah! hahas)

2009-11-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

BAD DAY
BAD DAY
BAD DAY
!!!

goshhhhhhhh!
today nothing much happened
but such a bad day lahhhhhhhh!!!

firstly,
YOU'RE GONEEEE!!!
TO SABARRRRRR!!!!
you know,
i was super duper lovesick!!!
and i still ammmmmm!!!!!!!!!!
i miss you...
gosh i cant stop saying it!
ok i type...
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you

i miss you....
gahhhh!

then,
wanna pack bag for tomorrow..
but i dumbly didn't copy wat daoyi wrote...
wth!!
stupid mira.. grrr....
so came online,
jh gave me checklist...
finally!!!!
=.=?

THEN,
now,
at exactly 7.56pm,
i found out there's an MOI lecture!!!
freakkkkkkkkkkkkk!
and i got no idea what i'm doing
and with whoooooooo!
great!
GREAT!!
SO,
WENT ONLINE
JUST TO ASK ABOUT THE BLOODY THINGG!
this is super man!
just super!

oh wait,
THERE'S MORE!
guess wat?!?!?!
my mom,
(who's angry at my dad)
decides to venge her anger by scolding ME!
freak lahhhh!
you try,
at night,
after minding your own business,
you come inside the bedroom
and all of a sudden,
YOUR MOM STARTS NAGGING AT YOU!
freak sia!!!

wait, MORE!
now,
MY PARENTS AREN'T TALKING TO EACH OTHER!
UNLESS SOMEONE TALKS TO BOTH AT THE SAME TIME!!
life truely sucks rite now!!!

lastly,
i'm super duperly freaking out about camp!!!
i'm gonna die for sure!
you know why?!
because...
*read carefully*
my & luke's DOCTOR lectured us..
during gthat lecture, he said afew things...
and it sums up to mean this,
"amira, you are not intelligent at all..
you dont think before answering..
all you say is i dunno"
FREAK LAHHHH!
I DONT KNOW ALOT OF INFO!
SO WHEN HE ASKS,
I JUST KEEP QUIET OR ANSWER I DUNNO LAH!!
grr...
plus HE'S A DOCTOR!
A QUALIFIED DOCTOR!
SOMEONE WHOM I INSPIRE FROM ALOT!!!
gosh!

ok,
grr..
gonna go cool down,
then finally pack my bag.
bye!

my life came crashing

ever since you left...

come back safely my prince

cos i dont think i could last...

he's reminding more and more of you...

i'm in trouble for sure!!

2009-11-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NUMBER
5!

i met this guy..
he's..
Amazing
Charming
Caring
Unique
One in a million
Undescribable
Full of surprises
Works wonders *haha*
and oh so much more...

i never knew that i could be
His One.
then this happens
and i never wanna leave his side...
though i know
he's everything but perfect,
i still know,
he's the one for me.

you know,
though i'm scared,
whenever i see you,
my life cant help but shine.
when i'm with you,
my life cant help but be so calm,
so... perfect...

My prince,
I promise you..
I will do my best.
I will enter the same school as you if i could.
I will try to be the best girlfriend i could.
I will stop thingking negatively
I wanna be with you.
I never wanna upset you.
&
I never wanna let you down.
Your arms are the only place i wanna be.

The only word to describe me is
I
The only feeling i want is
Love
The only one for me is
You
Thus,
the only sentence i ever need when i'm with you is
I LOVE YOU!
____________________________________________________

you know,
the future's coming..
and i know,
it would be filled with surprises...
though we wont know what is to come...
i present you these two songs
straight from the bottom of my heart.
the future will decide which song it wants for us..
but for now,
i know the second one is what i want..

though our paths are two differents roads...
it doesn't mean they wouldn't cross each other...
and until then,
i'll be waiting...

no matter near or far,
all i want is...
to be with you,
now...
and forever...

the perfect ball
that will never happen...

cos our school's too budget!

2009-11-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

FEELINGS...

i dunno why,
but i felt like posting these songs...
super nice!!
i like,
no, LOVE the first one..
cool sey!
six songs collide!
ok so enjoy..
oh reminder,
I CHOSE THEM AT RANDOM!!!!!
haha!

2009-11-17T16:22:00.002+08:00

Shoot me down
NOW!
~~thats an order.~~

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
got nagged by mrs koh just now..
cos i met her late..
lol!!
cant believe nurul and fad survived her nagging till i came!!

came back school to pay for sj shirt..
ITS BLUEEE!
i like! X)))))))
haha
then checked the juniors' full u...
JJ super cuteee!
he was waiting for us at BEDOK INTERRRR!
haha!
then his belt,
i adjust for him already...
BUT THEN HE TOOK THE BUCKEL OUTTTT!!!!!
JJ, this is for you,
=.=!!!

stayed back to help out with checking stock..
G.O. got alot of stuff missing!
all 6-8 F.A. pouch gone!
ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz....

ok went to hosp..
then amielia pointed to some girl wearing a super funny 'costume'?
she pointed to us..
when we turned,
this man, (who was passing the girl)
got slipped by the pavement while walking..
he *partially* fell down ah..
then we all laughed till we couldn't laugh no more!!!
mrs koh said maybe he fell cos he couldn't believe his eyes..
come one ah,
its a girl, dressed like a chem lab tableeeee!!!!
LOL!!!

ok i'm bored out of my mind..
wanna go sleep.
super tired.. NITEZ! haha!

sorry.

2009-11-16T17:35:00.002+08:00

YAY!!
HIP HIP
HORAYYYY!!!!!!!

wanted to show you these...

but i dunno why i didnt..

nvm,

no i show it to you!!!!!!

i knew you swallowed a magnet!

no wonder i'm attracted to YOU~~!!!

roses are red,

violets are blue,

my love to you,

will always be true!

keep it safe in your heart yea?

haha. just kidding.

i love you MORE than this!

thats what i did while you were at camp...

mimi too!

I CANT HEAR YOUR HEARTBEAT!!

come closer!!

you must remember this!

so yea..
sorry i didn't show you earlier! haha!
i'm gonna try and make something else..
wonder what.
hmm..
haha!
you'll find out soon!

2009-11-16T17:20:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

cant help but feel down..
grrr...
guess cos there's nothing to be happy about..?
wanna do hw..
but dunno got wat..
yasmin's got my booklet... =.=
(ahhh! you belong with me in on tv!!!!)
ok finally,
something to be happy about! haha!
i wanna bake muffins!
but since comp spoilt,
when i wanna do, comp cant be turned on..
should copy down the recepi!

kiutttt!

but i cant make them lah! haha

ahhhhhhhhh!

i'm gonna try making theseeee!!!

these are cool!!!

*yumm!*

MUNN!!

FOR YOUUUUUU!

ok this totally has "amira" all over it!!

reminder to self,

learn how to make cream rosessss!!!!!!!

fell in love with elmo again..

haha

its red!!!

gosh its redddddddd!!!!!

haha!

eat these and you'll never forget periodic table!!!!!

colourful seyyyyy!!!

ahhh
ok i didn't go crazy cos of muffins also,
thanx to ARDY, ARSHAD AND JIONGHONG TOO!
haha!!!
talk to much rubbish already ah..
especially with ardy!!!
ahhh!
now i know who's uncle, uncle and aunty!!!
haha!!!!!

ok
i REAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLYYYYY have to go...
cant stand having nothing to do..
OK excluding staring into thin air!
thats a hobby!
haha
byeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-11-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

REBOND????

WTH?!

cut my hair ATLASTTTTT!
my pouch should not have gone missing..
grrr....
oh!
know what happened???
i tell you,

one day,
after school,
rushed to meet teacher bout work...
then rushed to get changed...
then rushed to bedok..
then rushed to east coast for geog..
took 196
found out none of us knew when to alight...
me and weilun always alight different stops...
so we got confused...

when we didn't recognise where we were,
weilun said we missed the stop.
i said i dont think so..
but we just alight..
after bus went off..
i realised my pouch was missing..
shoots!
so weilun and the girls helped me call the ezlink thingy thingy person...
the person then asked us to call the bus service..
then the bus service asked us to call the driver..
so we all went "wth!!!" in our minds..
haha

so ya,
great rite?
good thing someone found my pouch..
guess where i had to retrieve it???
CLEMENTI!!!
=.=!
shish!

oh oh oh,
and and and,
my hair looks messyyyy!
my hair very 'fluffly'?
at the bottom ah..
like dunno wat to say lah!!
then my couz saw me and he asked,
"kak adek, you rebond hair??? since when??"
so i said to him,
"WHAT REBOND?! I CUT LAH!!"
then to explain himself, he said,
"ohh... your hair looks straighter plus alittle retarded curls ah!"
*stuper smart cousin....
dont ask wats stuper..
its a 2 word combination...

ok
wanna sleep...
getting restless....
NITEZ!

2009-11-13T16:08:00.002+08:00

ITSJUSTA

RAGE

haha!
secret meaning!
none of you know!
give you clue,
its a place
to write out wat you want tooooooooo

2009-11-10T17:03:00.000+08:00

I'M
TOTALLY,
OFFICIALLY,
OBVIOUSLY,
MOST
PROBABLY
BOREDDDDDDD!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan! At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

1. How old are you?
FIFTEEEEEEEEEENNNNNN!

2. Are you single?
nopeeeee! X)

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
24-26?? idk! haha.

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
shhh... my secret!

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
my imaginary friend! *if i had one...!*

6. Who will be your bridesmaid / best man?
YASMIN!!!! MURNIII TOOOOOOOO!

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
garden maybe? i love flowers!
or beach! the place i love!!!
most probably traditional though.. * parents! X( *

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
anywhere as long as i'm with himmmm! XP

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
everyone and anyone that i know *and still remember* can?!
haha!

10. Will that include your exes?
m ex is my friend so why not?!

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
i like number six... so... SIX! HAHA!!

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
how bout whole day long?? hehe!

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
selamat pengantin baru *like any other weddings*
(oh i want love story too cannnnnnn????)

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon, fork and knife?
normal! know why?
cos of my dreammmmmmm! haha!

15. Champagne or red wine?
NONE! I WANT BANDUNGGGGG! haha!

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
as soon as we got the money! must plan lahhhhhhhhh! LOL

17. Money or household items?
both! equal amounts!

18. How many kids would you like to have?
THREE! *please be girls! haha!*

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD
erm... we cant possibly record it ourselves can we??
*aiya, confirm got spies record for us!!! haha!*

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
ANYONE/EVERYONE!
*kak wara boleh tak ah?? hehe!*

2009-11-10T15:31:00.000+08:00

yasmin hadddd
only 15
minutes
to get..
READYYYYY!

2009-11-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

legs are trembling,
hands are swelling,
all thats needed is,...
HELPPPPP!!!!

gahh..
archery,
though i love you so much,
i hate you more...
grrrr.....
getting fed up like toot at home..
gah,
please take me out of hereeeee.....
*good thing i could barely walk!
or else, I'M SOOO OUT OF HERE!!!*

ok ndidn't update much..
so lets just talk bout archery ok???
fingers are still swolen..
so i'm enduring!

went to meet the *idiotic* guys at mac..
bloody asses nvr tell me go mac..
i waited like a FOOL at inter...
freaks..
never gonna organise ANYTHING for you guys...
forget it man!

bus-ed to haigh road for archery.
mr chan and mr ng were our coaches...
mr chan didn't do alot...
just bossed mr ng ALOT...
mr ng was from sjab!
and still is!
Sir andy! *i tink*

lectured.. blahblahblah..
went to do some shots..
i sucked alot!
then got better...
but my finger were aching already..
the guys did better at first..
then become i dunno wat....
weida is grrr!
he got highest again!!!!!!
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
nvm, i'll try harder!

when it was time for real test,
i flunked siaaaa for practical...
gosh!
i sucked to the max..
but still had fun though! haha!
pearlyn beat meeee!
watch out pearlyn!
i'm gonna beat 122 points!
just wait and see! haha!

in conclusion,
me and pearlyn learnt this :
BRING/USE PLASTERS BEFORE SHOOTING!!!!!!
should have known earlier! haha!
going home was... ok?
the guys were ignored...
got fedup by their *******ness...

oh oh oh,
and and and,
guess wat???
i walked in the rain!!
AND IT WAS NICEEEEEE!
LOVED IT!
the feeling of hatred and sadness dissapeared!
and i was *atlast* happy! XD
to make my day better,
what i read was s...
sweet!!
*chocolate's still sweeter though! haha*
ok ok...
i wanna sum everything up..

though chocolate is sweet,
you're as sweet as can be..
though achery hurt me,
i had fun as you could see...

rough days up ahead,
rainy days most of the days..
though this is bound to be true..
we'l overcome it, just me and you.

everyone has their ups and downs,
we'll always see smiles and frowns..
but note this in your hearts,
friends are here for you, never far apart...

united we stand,
divided we fall
this shows everyone,
it refers to all...
live life to the fullest
never with regrets
one life is what you have,
only one life is what you'll ever get!

ok random poem*S*..
i miss writing poems...
haha!
nvm,
i'll think of more...
byeeeeee

sayang,

the things you wrote in your blog,

were as sweet as can be...

and you were rite!

i do like it!

ALOT! haha

i noticed the change in your blog long ago...

you never fail to be the surprising you,

do you?

haha...

sleep tight my prince!

2009-11-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

dreams...
are ~~never~~ better
than reality...

i got the weirdest dream ever...
can you its sweet too??
haha..
ok i'll try to recall..
oh btw, its LONGGGGG!
so dont read cos it boring too! haha!

i dont really know who were with us..
but there were 6 girls and 6 boys...
bronson was there..
so was arshad...
we were having kind of a party..
then decided to explore a little...

everyone rode bikes..
for some reason,
me, arshad and bron were on 1 bike...
*dont ask how we fit into one*
while riding,
we saw a cake shop..
decided to buy since something inside of us
were telling us to buy it...
we bought and continued cycling awhile...
then, we came to a stop..

there was a huge hedge infront of us...
funny how a hedge would be built in singapore...
since we got bored after eating part of our cakes,
we went to explore how to get over the hedge...
then, we saw a door...
camouflaged as a hedge...
we entered...
to our surprise,
when we entered,
all our clothes were changed...
to those of roman kinds...
ball gounds,
fancy coats and more!
our cakes were different...
instead of only parts of it left,
beautiful whole cakes replaced them.
*funny! i know! fantasy.. haizzz*

it seems that we were all walking in a tunnel...
tunnel but built by the big hedge...
soon, we came to a stop...
there, stood a lady...
long hair all bun-ed up nicely...
with a beautiful pink gown..
it was as though, she was going to a ball...
she said, from here,
only those who thinks are worthy may enter...
only one girl will be chosen to meet the prince...
*weird, i know...*

all the 5 went forward and the lady just stood there,
"aren't you going to even try??" she said..
"why should i?" i said...
"go on, just try!" arshad said...
"why would i want a prince to be mine when i had him?"
i whispered...
thankfully no1 heard me..
i just steped forward too and the lady brought us down...
down to a beautiful dining room...

"there is only one test for you...
one test to determine all...
the prince can see you...
he'll choose the winner."
she said..
everyone looked around..
i looked up to look at the guys...
then noticed him,
smilng,..
giving me a thumbs up...

there, stood a big table,
set for many to have a dinner...
with all the fancy cutleries and shiny plates..
there, we were to do oly one thing..
which was show what kind of manners you have....
i didn't know what to do,
which spoons/forks to use..
and many more....
*DO NOT COMMENTTTT! HAHA!*
then i recalled p6..
where they taught us how to use everything!

so while looking at the other girls,
struggling and complaining bout wat to do,
i sat still...
i dare not do anything...
while looking the girls being *eww-ly* girly,
the lady asked me to 'show her what i've got'...
i just acted normal,
hoping she wouldn't pick me...

after everything was done,
she asked us all,
what do we think we did wrong...
each girl said their own mistakes...
when it came to my turn,
the girls started being ~~bitches~~ mean...
they pointed out my mistakes,

yes,
but also pointed other which i did not make...
i couldn't speak up..
i just looked down..
once the girls finished saying all they wanted,
the lady ask me again..
"do you have wat it takes?"
"i'm ready..." i said looking down..

she starred at me..
then lifted my chin and said,
"then dont look down on yourself.
cos you're 'the one'"
she took me to a small room,
leaving the speechless girls behind..
i felt terrible..
why of all people me??
i looked up and he wasn't there..
i felt even worst...

i sat there in a small room...
the prince came in then...
again, i didn't look up..
feeling terrible than ever,
a barely wanted to even look at him..
then,
he asked,
"dont you feel lucky?
not all girls get to meet me..."

"why should i?"
i said..

"come one!
something's wrong...
whats wrong???"

"look,
you're finding your girl..
but i dont belong to you..
my heart's taken to someone.. someone i really care for....
not you..."
i said still looking down..
~~*i know, i cant believe i told him...!!!*~~

"then look up,
look me in my eyes and say,
i'm not the one you love..."
he said...

i looked up..
at first closing my eyes...
when i opened...
to my surprise,
i realise i couldn't do it..
i couldn't say "i dont love you" to him..
i just couldn't....
know why??
because...
the prince was him...
the only reason he wasn't there when i looked up was because...
he was the prince...
the prince in my dreams...

i became speechless....
"now you understand,
why YOU were chosen?'
he smiled at me...

then i woke up..
actually no lah...
the last part got lah..
but i'm not THAT dumb to post it hereeeee!hahaa!
ok it 10pm now..
wanna sleep!!!
byeeeeeee!!!

2009-11-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

~~GOSH THAT WAS HARD TO ASSEMBLE!!!!~~

~~haha!~~

2009-11-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

memories
never
forgotten...

haha..
i like that qoute!
makes me happy for once! XD
me and joel are currently suffering from the
"imisskotillnow" desease... grr...
well, we're trying to cheer each other up! haha
guess wat happened in the bus today???
~~i was alone,~~
~~i remembered ko and started crying....~~
sad rite?! grr..
nvm,
have to get over it..
he MUST come back sooner or later!
XP

ok i didn't update for a LONG time..
2 experiences i never forgot....
going to wild wild wet
AND
at the airport...

wild wild wet rocked!
haha!
guess how many times we rode the ular-lar?!
MORA THAN 15!!!
haha!
the girls wanted a nice pict..
so we went on it again...
and again...
and again....
AND AGAIN!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the girls had a girl talk about marriage!
very super funny!!! haha!
plus it was fun NOT gossiping for once.. LOL!
i still remember them saying to me,
".... eh next time,
when we 2 get boyfriends already,
we 3 go out on TRIPLE DATE OK?!?!"
haha!
sorry, the "...." part cant type..
private! shh! haha!

ok,
i forgot alot lah actually..
but i remember SH's phone!
his LAGGING phone!
he wanna take my pict,
he click..
but camera didn't take my pict till a second++ later...
haha!!!!!
LAGGING!!!!

NEXT,
AIRPORT!!!
ok lah...
it was fun!
especially the weijia throwing vulgar part!
super funny!!!
she got pissed off before dinner...
cos of someone..
then she threw alot of vulgar but softly..
me and stuart laughing like crazy! haha!

i loved spending quality time with..
stuart,
weijia
jionghong,
joel oh
and arshad!
super funn!
jionghong super cute when he 'gets jealous'! haha!
should see him!
he's like a lil kid!!!!

ok..
going out with stuart's fun cos...
he makes fun of weijia ALOT! haha!
going out with weijia's fun cos...
she LOVES to eat! haha!
going out with jionghong's fun cos...
he acts like a lil kid!!!!
going out with joel's fun cos...
quality time with him is super funnn!!!!
going out with arshad's fun cos...
he'll say alot of funny things! haha!

isn't that cool???
haha!
see i've got reasons for what i say ok! XP
i think i find my life voring ahh nowadays..
cant wait till 7 more years!!!
i am SOOOO gonna work hard for university!
i'm gonna be the first SINGAPORE cousin in my family tree
to go to a university!!
lalalalala....
ok
i'm gonna post some picts online now..
not from camera ah!
lazy upload! heh!
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

_________________________________________________

my favourite!! haha XP!

sayang...

sorry while at airport...

i couldn't accept the fact he's going...

you know,

for some reason...

i'll feel upset whenever

i see you

but am not spending time with you...

instead,

you're with others...

now i know...

i know i wanna spend

as much time as possible

with you!

2009-10-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

gosh,

It's...
Scary...
If you get
THAT feeling...

i'm super duper afraid rite now...
i'm hoping that i'm wrong...
SIGH!

try having your father
say alot of weird stuff..
weird as in good weird...
try being closer to your father than mother...
but *like usual parents*
he have never actually said "i love you" to you...

but suddenly,
he begins saying it..
over and over again...
then he starts talking stuff like...
"i want you to prove your mom wrong..."
and
"i know you can do it..."
and
"i believe in you..."
and
"dont you EVER let me down no matter what..."
i ask you,
have your dad EVER said these stuff to you??
i bet you that your answer is no...

well,
according to malays...
before someone passes away..
there will be "signs"...
its like,
the person who's going knows that they're going soon...
so they're using the remaining time
to 'complete' their lives...
so they start talking weird but they dont realise it...
you know,
that's what i'm afraid of..
i DONT EVER want him to go....

until now,
i've seen MANY close friends suffer losing parents
and the ones they love...
one even cried till she fainted cos she couldn't accept that fact...

my father...
ever since mid exams he started acting weird...
i'm... scared....
i cant talk to anyone but 1 person..
the rest wont understand the actual feeling...
but i wont...
whats the use?!
if you know me,
there are two things i cannot do easily...
firstly, talk about how i'm feeling...
i was used to not being listened...
thus i'm used to keeping everything in....
secondly,
it is NOT easy for me to cry...
it takes ALOT...
trust me...

in sjab,
i cried cos i cared...
i love sjab no matter what...
i know i may not be the best there...
but my passion towards it never dies....

the other time,
i got angry...
so angry i just threw something dear to me to someone...
then kept silent in one corner...
thats cos my feelings were hurt...
were hurt till i couldn't take it anymore....

so to all of you rite now,
when i keep silent..
please do think about me..
dont worry...
i'm just.... thinking?

2009-10-27T17:24:00.000+08:00

I WANT COOOOOKIE!

i got craving for cookie....
oh and munn's cousin is crazy...
i think i'm dying of boredom....
i still want cookie!
i need to go shopping..
shoot, i'm writing crap...
i got GOOD reason ok!
ermm... hmm...
ok i dont..
grr.. should've gone to school....
could have killed time.... haha!

getting much more sian....
just wasted some msges..
know for wat???
sjab!
msged them to send me the ppt slides..
NO ONE SENT!
NOT EVEN ONEEEEE!
=.="""""
grr..
takpe, nasib baik lah aku boleh tahan...
LOL!
so, started from scratch..
browsed through past slides and notes...
oh and i realised ANOTHER thing!
browsing through past notes CAN be fascinating! haha!
ok lazy to change font and stuff..
finally done with some stuff..
wanna go play games! haha!
bye

2009-10-26T00:01:00.011+08:00

HAPPY FOURTH!

every night,

under the clear blue sky,

with the stars in the sky,

and the moon shining bright...

never was there a night,

that you weren't here in my mind...

everyday,

seeing you walk by,

seeing you smiling by,

all i'd asked myself,

do i make u fly?

every hour,

thats spent with you,

you're like my one special flower

who never fails to bloom..

every minute

wasted with you

i know my wish

already came true

every second

as i look into your eyes,

as you hold my hand,

all i want you to know is...

my love to you will never die...

people say hello and goodbye..

but people always forget the last part of it...

so i'm reminding you now,

hello will lead to a goodbye

but will end with an i misssed you...

once there was a boy,
who, never had i known, existed...
i never knew i existed in his life either...
till the day came..
never did i expected,
anyone who would wanna even talk to me..
cos i was then..
just a simple nobody...

we talked,
as though we were best friends..
the secrets i've nvr shared
was all poured out
without me knowing it..

i remembered,
there was a time...
my life was at its most horrible moment..
there was only a feeling of lonelyness...
i didn't know who to turn to..
i didn't know who to talk to..
but only 1 person was in my mind..
and that was you...

everytime lonely invaded my castle,
my prince is always there to try all his might
to save me..
though its hard to see him suffer
just cos i'm suffering,
he manages to save me
and bring the lonelyness out...

to my dearest prince,
my heart's never felt like this before
and ever since you came into my life
i've never asked from you for anything more.

i want to do my best
i want to prove my cousin wrong
to prove to many
that i can do it..
i'll try my best
to reach for my goals
and i know i can do it,
as long as your here with me.

today marks a special day
for both you, and me
i hope today is one of your best days...
so be happy,
as happy as can be!!

i know in one way or another,
i never did do my part..
so here i am..
hoping you'd forgive me...

i'm sorry i didn't help
i'm sorry i hurt you
i'm sorry i'm not perfect
i'm sorry for wat i made you go through...
i'm sorry i forgot
i'm sorry for my wrongs
i'm sorry....

' + ' . ' + ' . + ' . ' ( '
( )"""( ) ( )"'@( )
( , ' o ' )   ( ' o ' , )
( (,,) (,,)   (,,) (,,) )
like i said,
i'll be watching over you
tonight & every other night!

.* * ,   , * * .
*        *          *
* .             . *
     " * ,, * "
i'll put up my heart here...
for you to take...

    @>-----
a flower
from me to you...

you know,
when you blog,
it doesn't have to be about negative stuff...
i believe there are fun stuff
happening in your life..
try writing about happy stuff...
even the darkest moments have a little light..

example,
*EXAMPLE ONLY AH!*
if someone trips and falls..
its a bad thing yes..
but admit it, it IS funny!
haha!

somtimes,
i feel much better reading others' blog...
most of the time,
reading about someone else,
gives u ideas of wat to blog!

2009-10-24T20:38:00.000+08:00

i realised...?

i dunno why but i'm writing these down..
i guess i've been thinking..?

poeple DONT go around find their 'someone'...
we go around in search of friends!

i realised,
whenever you want something really badly,
you wont really get it..
only when you 'give up' will you get it...

love isn't exactly what you read in photobucket and stuff...
you will never know when you're in love...

for some reason,
being confident is difficult for me...

sometimes,
when you think you're confident enough to achieve something,
it doesn't mean you'll get it..

sometimes,
its MUCH better to be yourself..
this way,
its easier for someone else to point out
YOUR mistakes...

most of the time,
i feel like talking...
complaining,
expressing myself..
but i realise..
when this happens...
i cant find the rite words to say....
now i know why some people cant understand me...

i realised,
when you dont 'talk' to your parents for a long time...
they'll worry..
worry ALOT about you...

when poeple say "kurang hajar" to you...
it doesn't only say that your parents didn't teach you well..
it also says that you didn't listen well enought to your parents....

when you're in love,
you should never forget...
you love your parents more than anyone on earth...

you know you love someone*as a friend/more* when....
no matter how much you hate him/her
you cant keep on hating them.

the only way to make friends...
is to be one..
this means,
being patient is an important thing...

i realised...
i'm the type....
who cant show anger towards many....
though i do not like someone, ...
i will NEVER have the heart to be mean to them...
i guess, my past taught me something after all....!

ok i guess thats all i've realised..
*that i could remember atleast! XP*
note to EVERYONE....
these are all RUBBISH!
so do not think i'm pointing out to anyone!!!
better still,
forget all these...
theiy're MY lessons in life...

2009-10-24T17:57:00.004+08:00

GIRLS,

YOUR TIME TO..

SHINE!!!!

What kind of
GIRL ARE YOU?
40% of girls in the world usually don't know who they are.
The judgements made by their friends are not that accurate
This can help you, make the correct judgement
There must strictly be NO cheating or the results won't be accurate
And if you're a guy, SHOO. You don't want to be a girl, do you?
Get ready a piece of paper and pen
Write 1 - 10 in a column
SCROLL if you're READY...

1) What is your favourite colour?
a) Red
b) Pink
c) Yellow
d) Light blue*

2) What is your favourite hang-out place with your friends?
a) Home
b) Shopping mall*
c) Dinner at restaurant

3) What is your usual dress code?
a) Pants and shirt*
b) Long flowy dress
c) Pajamas?
d) Cap, mini running shorts and singlet

4) If you had free time, what would you do?
a) Have a picnic with family and relatives*
b) Throw a party with friends
c) Read a book
d) Play with your dolls

5) Name one of your hobbies
a) Photography
b) Studying*
c) Dancing

6) What is your favourite genre of music?
a) Pop*
b) Rock
c) Classical

7) In your opinion, who is the most important person/people/thing in your life?
a) *Him
b) Bank account
c) Family*

8) If your mother gives you $50, you would...
a) Donate it to charity*
b) Demand more, because it's not enough to get you the stuff you want
c) Give it to the bully because he/she says so

9) If the guy of your dreams asks you out the day before the exams, you...
a) Tell him to study for the exams first.*
b) Just go out with him
c) Run away quickly

10) What is your favourite time of the day?
a) Afternoon*
b) Morning
c) Night

11) MAKE A WISH!

TIME'S UP!
Now for the FUN part...

1) What is your favourite colour?
-Red (brave)
-Pink (sweet)
-Yellow (fun)
-Light blue (carefree)*

2) What is your favourite hangout place with your friends?
-Home (simple)
-Shopping mall (crazy, fun)*
-Dinner at restaurant (serious)

3) What is your usual dress code?
-Pants and shirt (simple)*
-Long flowy dress (graceful, elegant)
-Pajamas? (sloppy)
-Cap, mini running shorts and singlet (atheletic)

4) If you had free time, what would you do?
-Have a picnic with family and relatives (cares, loves family)*
-Throw a party with friends (wacky)
-Read a book (shy, hardworking)
-Play with your dolls (childish)

5) Name one of your hobbies
-Photography (creative)
-Studying (clever, mature)*
-Dancing (graceful)

6) What is your favourite genre of music?
-Pop (fun)*
-Rock (loud, crazy)
-Classical (relaxed, carefree)

7) In your opinion, who is the most important person/people/thing in your life?
-*Him (lovesick)
-Bank account (moneyminded)
-Family (lovable, sweet)*

8) If your mother gives you $50, you would...
-Donate it to charity (helpful)*
-Demand more, because it is not enough to get you the stuff you want (greedy)
-Give it to the bully because he/she says so (soft)

9) If the guy of your dreams asks you out the day before the exams, you...
-Tell him to study for the exams first. (mature)*
-Just go out with him (naughty)
-Run away quickly (shy)

10) What is your favourite time of the day?
-Afternoon (cheerful)*
-Morning (healthy)
-Night (dark, emotional)

_______________________________________________________

ok some random picts
(since i'm bored!)

I'D LOVE TO FIND THIS!

HAHA!
SUPER NICE!!

for all of uuuuuu!

you,
know make me feel this way?

i am these..
*except the 3rd fact*

IT'S ALL.....

ok i go find more next time..
now stomach grumbling cos of yesterday! haha!
byeee......................

2009-10-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

Amira
Loves
Blogging
AND
YOU

2009-10-23T20:36:00.004+08:00

*BREATHING DEEPLY*

ok today was an
"i love my life but hated every minute" day...
grr...
firstly,
mdm R came!!
she should have stayed home to relax...
haha

then i like emaths now!
cos i got 31/50 for P1
and i got 41/50 for P2!!!!!
DISTINCTION LOCKED INNNNNN!!!!
WOOHOOOOOO!!!!

PE was freaking exhausting!
played for awhile
*thats how it felt ah*
and we were all already tired...
i dont like going against the "three towers"!
make me feel short! hmp~!!

recess was sooo short!
we were drinking,
then came to class...
then posted *lastminute* notice....
then came up..
then chatted alittle..
and next thing know,
teacher here!!!
unfair!

SS was horrid!
i got lowest in our clique!
i got 25/50!!!!!
wth rite?!
i didn't understand the sources
thus dunno how to write for SBQ!
if u see m,y SEQ,
you'd realised i busted my brain to study!!!
grrr....

then,
mdm R came in..
she gave us our Amaths P1 back...
i loveeeeee it!
got 31/50 for P1!!!
gosh! fantastic lahhhh!
now i'm hoping i didn't flunk P2!!

training was..
undescribable?
i'll leave it to you to pick if its a good/bad thing!
had lecture at first..
i didn't present cos..
I DONT KNOW WHAT WAS ON THE SLIDES!
cant expect me to read only rite?!!!!!

then test was next...
the juniors ah!!
give them clue still dunno how to do!
its just "name the 7 types of wounds"!!!
abrasion
contusion
laceration
gunshot
stab
punctured
Incised!!!!
as easy as thattttttt!
CPR also dunno!
grr...

had games after that..
my muscles got twisted..
cos rite...
this DUMB GIRL didn't do any stretching!
dumbo = amira!
remember that!!!!

then had to do changing parade..
i had to do uniform inspection..
by inspecting the girls,
i come to one conclusion....
DO NOT CUT LAYER ANYMORE!!!
haha! its true lah!

lalalalala...
blablablablabla....
then got cake for ko..
celebrated...
ms rosmira is our new teacher!
blablabla...
i had to command the bersurai..
was nervous...
i didn't get that feeling..
the feeling of achievement...
cos...
the only reason i got to bersurai them
was cos bron was sick....
it wasn't the reason i was expecting...
so yea..
i'll still wait till 'the day' comes....

i'm finally home now!
great sia!
took me like 15mins just to walk from bus stop to HOME!
usually only like 3mins...
was damn tired..
remembered i didn't eat today at all...
then i couldn't really breathe properly also..
dont ask why!
cos i dunno also...
so walked & walked till i 'collapse' onto my bed...
still not eating nor bathing yet...
too tired to get up i guess...
nvm,
i'm gonna try...

also,
i got left at home
alone with my maid
while the rest went swimming..
irritating..
so hungry yet so full..
this feeling's horrible!
gah,,
nvm, i'm trying to get up to batheee!
BYE!!

from the way you would hold me

to the sweet things u told me

i just cant find a way

to let go of you...

you know...

when u said you WOULD do 'it'..

i didn't believe it..

know why?

cos i've never done 'it'...

its not cos i didn't trust you...

i was...

~~scared?nervous?idunno...~~

2009-10-18T22:52:00.001+08:00

can we start over?
i miss you...

i really needed to let that out...
dont stop ok?
dont go...
cos i promise..
i wont....

today was funnnnnn! haha!

morning was.. bleah...

know why?

cos SOMEONE woke up earlier than me..

dont friend that person ah!

haha!

ok childish...

spent the afternoon

wotching tv,

playing comp,

blahblahblah,

finish my 'long compo'

and more

blahblahblah....

to sum it up,

today was slacking day! haha!

for dinner..

*i like dinner!*

my lil bro treat us pizza hut!!

*oh plus a few bucks from my mom ah*

he wanted to treat last week

but something came out...

yummmmm! haha!

bought"ocean catch" pizza..?

i think that was its name at least... haha!

then got some side dishes..

and omgoshhhh!

i love lasagnia!

*or however you spell that! haha!*

ok,

in conclusion,

today rocked! haha!

ohh and i finally got the markers i wanteddddd!!!

weeee!

plus, i got my headband too!

and stickersssssss! haha!

ok, i'm not childish,

i just miss my childhood days... LOL

it nite time now!

wanna go bed!

i hope i wont get anymore scary dreams...

give me chills,

make me scared!

NITES YOU ALL!!!!

BYEEEEEEE

(ps, whoever that read my *current* private blog,

please act like you didn't read anything!

thanx!)

i wish..

i could see these in the sky...

shooting stars...

a beautiful rainbow...

a bright and shining moon...

an then...

i wanna see you..

flying high in the sky..

reaching for your dreams...

when i see these things,

then will i know,

its time for me to fly..

cos i'll never fly

as long as you're on the ground....

nite!

2009-10-18T14:24:00.000+08:00

Fell asleep in the arms of the opposite sex?
Nope.. :(

Ever physically fought with a member of the opposite sex?
nopee.

Ever walked in on your friends having sex?
my friends still a V lahh

Ever sang to the person you liked?
sang to, nopee. sang with, yupp
for fun ahh

Is there anyone who likes you?
i know there is! <3

Do you believe ex's can be friends ?
Yupppp

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
exams? haha... erm.. in bus??.

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
everyone yes..

What is/are your favorite color/s?
sky blue, navy blue, sea blue, ocean blue, baby blue, every blue & pink! haha

Are you a shy person?
shy as in feelings yes, other i guess not?

What are you excited for?
bed time. XP

Do you have memories that you want to forget?
erm.. hmmm.. i not sure..

If you could cry right now, what would be the reason?
Happiness?

Are you happy?
currently, yea!

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
let the future be my surprise!

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
SHORTS!

Do you hate seeing happy couples?
nope.. they look cute!

If you went to jail, who would bail you out?
erm i dunno..
*i'm not going there for sure!*

How tall are you?
161cm? around there ah..
*short i know!*

When was the last time you were actually happy?
THIS MORNING!

How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair?
depends..
tie : 10 - 15minutes?
untie : 5minutes! haha!

Have you ever played spin the bottle?
nope! i good girl!

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
yupp.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
almost kinda?

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
Love one person!

Have you ever wondered how they make lines in toothpaste?
yuppp... and i still dunno the ans!!

Do you ever feel curious about how people see you?
ALWAYSSSSS!

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
i dunno!
LOL!

Do you find smoking unattractive?
erm.. obvious rite???

Who was your crush in 5th grade?
primary 5..... it was still R.. haha

What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
losing him in the end..?

Have you ever suspected anyone cheating on you?
erm... nope! ;P

Do you remember who you liked on New Years?
haha... yuppp!
and still liking him!

Are you someone who worries too often?
YESSSSSSS!!!!

Could things possibly get any better?
OBVIOUSLYYYYY!!

Have you consumed alcohol in the past 24 hours?
NOPEEEEEEE

Have you ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex everyday?
if i'm not wrong, yes... but with cousins ah

Have you ever been in a car accident?
erm.. nope

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
TEDDY BY MY SIDE!!!

Do you like sushi?
erm.. depends?

What can you currently hear?
TIMMY TURNER'S VOICEEE!

Whats the last pinkie promise you made, and to who?
erm... something to do with presents.. haha

Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
i dont think so...

Is there anyone home?
everyone BUT my sis

The person you fell hardest for died today, how would you feel?
"you left... without saying goodbye.... you left me hanging..."

Have you kissed someone in 09 that means a lot to you?
NOPEEEEEEE.

Something tragic just happened, does your facial expression show it?
erm... should be...
*no wonder when something happens & i go tuition after that, Ryan would say,
"eh u ok or not?? u look so stress! chill ok?!"

Do you miss someone?
someone, no! some people, YESSSSS!

So, what do you want for your birthday?
a birthday card is nice. i dont ask for presents lah dey!

Does any part of your body hurt right now?
haha.. shhh! dont tell u!

Would you ever work at McDonalds?
if i could, i would? haha

Are any of your Facebook TOP friends gay/bi/ lesbian?
nope!

Would you care if you saw the person you like, kissing someone else?
yea.. pretty much....

Did you see a boy today that made you smile?
i've been home...

What are you doing tomorrow?
slacking/studying?

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
secret! shhhhhhh!

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
NOPEEEEEEEEEE

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
SMS, yea

Do you love anyone right now?
Yea! loadsssssss

Is it easy to make you cry?
kind of? depends....
i cant cry on my own.. sad siaaaaaaa

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yea... 2 of them...

Were you happy when you woke up?
No! cos i didn't wake up earlier than YOU!

Does the person you like, like you back?
i trust he does. <3

If any, name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
FLY WITH ME - jonas

Do you want someone to call you right now?
yea...

If someone liked you right now would you want to know?
maybe?

Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
not anymore

When was the last time you had butterflies?
Yesterday!

Who do you want to see right now?
everyoneeeeeeeee

Did you mean "I love you" when you said it last?
OBVIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!

Do you get upset over the opposite sex easily?
haha.. ask jing wen!

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
not really...

What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
*blush* *turn away after that*

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
YUPPP

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with ?
jing wen! or was is bron??

Where were you at 4:00 this morning ?
on my bed sleeping!

What's the cd in your player ?
*empty....*

Can you count to ten in more than one language and what language ?
english, malay, english, chinese, ENGLISH, *spanish till 7 only.. :'(*

Who is the last person to tell you they love you ?
EH KPO LAH! SECRETTTTTTTT!!! haha

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
nope.. :(
later ok?

Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color ?
it not most natural.. cos its TOTALLY NATURAL!

Is your bed big enough for you ?
YUPPPPP!

What was the reason behind the last time you laughed ?
RUBBISH CRAP SAID BY 3 BOYS!

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried ?
YUPP

What is your favourite thing about being sick ?
rite now, only the fact i dont see mdm 'rose'

Do you look at the keyboard when you type ?
yupp.. haha!
i know what you're thinking! so shush!

When was the last time someone confessed to liking you ?
June.. :P

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward ?
YESSSSSSS!!
MEMANG BETOL!!!!!!
SI!!!!!
AGREEABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you like to look up at the stars at night ?
if there are any, then yes!

Bright or dark room ?
Bright!!!!!

haha,
i got nothing better to do,
i know!
haha

you proved to me

that i am still your gf...

and you proved to me,

that i was wrong..

you are truely...

the only prince i love...